And a nice pipe pays for itself in my opinion. I loved a good cigar back in the day, but they NEVER relaxed me like a bowl of a nice CHEAP Whiskey Blend of tobacco.I'm sorry to hear about the troubles...on the bright side you'll have a really nice pipe on the way and figuring that out should offer a nice reset button. I think that's probably what you need more than anything is a reset button.
Best of luck.